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The best thing about speed bumps…

Posted by Oli on Wednesday 9th January, 2008

…is the way you accelerate away from them afterwards.

And that’s exactly what I’ve done today. Yesterday was rubbish, no doubt about it – I still can’t find anything worse in the whole recovery process than feeling sick. Tired I can deal with, pain I can put up with, but nausea is something I just can’t cope with – it totally bums me out and ruins any day it pokes its rubbish little head into.

Yesterday, however, was yesterday and today is very much today – a vast improvement and significant acceleration from my little speed bump.

Today I did two things I’ve not done for ages, never mind since my op. First of all, just after 12, the legendary (and I use that word with the most careful consideration) Dazz came over and collected K and I to take us out to the cinema. For those of you who don’t know, this is the most momentous of momentous occasions for me.

Before I was ill, I would go to the cinema maybe 4-5 times a week, frequently taking in up to 8 films in any given 7 day period, some weeks watching films multiple times, other weeks just ploughing through everything that was showing in the building. As I got worse, my trips became less and less frequent and once I moved on to oxygen, I was hardly going at all and certainly would never have dared going alone without backup. My last visit to the cinema was back in the summer to see The Simpsons Movie, along with K and my brother pushing me in a wheelchair. The humiliation I felt being somewhere so familiar in such a vulnerable position all but ruined the experience for me and until my op I never set foot nor wheel inside the building again.

So today I felt a wave of the most amazing relief wash over me as I strode up to the counter to purchase my ticket for I Am Legend (which is very good, by the way, although a little scary, so if that’s not your thing then steer clear). It felt a little like returning home after a long absence – everything familiar, if the tiniest bit different in the details.

I lapped it up – the adverts, the over-priced food which I’d normally never touch, the grand, sweeping trailers on the big screen, the sheer size of the wide-screen viewing space as the feature began to roll – the sense of excitement and anticipation that I feel sitting in front of the silver screen hasn’t gone away and my passion for movies in their natural environment was instantly rekindled.

After a mesmerizing 2 hours (come to think of it, maybe the film wasn’t as good as I thought it was, maybe it’s the experience I’m savouring…) we departed the flicks for the second first of the day: Borders.

Anyone who was with me way back in the early days of 2006 will remember this entry, so knowing that one of my first “independent” trips out would be to Borders. That and the fact that I had a goodly amount of dough to spend from Christmas on books and DVDs.

As is my usual policy with vouchers I get given, I always spend them on things that I would love to have but usually wouldn’t buy for myself because they’re a little pricey. So I came away with a Making of Sin City book which I’ve been lusting after for over 2 years now and a filmmaking book I should really have on my shelves. Added to which, rather dangerously, there was a DVD sale on, so I picked up Rocky Balboa, Y Tu Mama Tambien, Sunshine, The Good German, The Science of Sleep and War of the Worlds (mostly for the extras). Perfect.

On top of all this brilliant greatness of the day, I’ve also finally started putting into place the plans for the Tresco marathon mile I’ll be running with my bro and his section of marines in April, the first step of which is my Justgiving page, which can be found at I’m not looking for heaps of sponsorship (just 10p a yard, in fact), but I figured that if I put myself out there raising money for charity then it wouuld keep me honest and make sure I don’t duck out at the last minute. Not that I would anyway, but, you know…

If you’d feel like passing the address on to anyone, obviously feel free. Otherwise, keep an eye here for my progress towards my biggest post-op goal so far. I’m sure they’re going to get bigger with time, but a mile seems a really long way right now. Fingers crossed.


8 Responses to “The best thing about speed bumps…”

  1. Emily said

    hurrah for the cinema no longer being out of your reach! Y Tu Mama is great….although first time I tried to watch it I didn’t have the subtitles on and by the 3rd scene was utterly bewildered 😉


  2. Lorraine said

    Ah – you cinema addict you! I wish I had the time or the inclination, but sadly, I have neither.
    I’ll plug your Justgiving web page through my various on-line orrifice’s and will sponsor you when funds allow after holidays and xmas.
    Welcome back to fresh air, dashing around and life. xx

  3. Katie H said

    Lovely to hear about your great day, so nice to see the true changes that your transplant is making to your life. Enjoy the cinema – think there’s a few good films coming up, so I’m sure you be kept busy!

  4. Liz Upton said

    Glad the nausea’s gone – I do hope you won’t end up suffering from it every time you take the medication.

    We saw I am Legend in IMAX. Big mistake – zombies filling your whole field of vision do not make for a quiet night’s sleep.

  5. suzie said

    Fab blog Oli,

    ‘Carry on filming’

    I know……I know, but I had to say it because it sprang into my head.

  6. Linda-Jane said

    You don’t know me but I’ve read your blog over the last year and your words always just exactly captured life as it was for my son, who died just over 2 years ago. I’ve held my breath and cried tears of joy for you. Cinema was Jonathan’s greatest love, we did it right to the end even with 6 canisters of portable O2, and two mates to humph them. Films were divided into ‘Linda’ and ‘Scott’ catagories – ‘Linda’ nice ones and I think ‘I am Legend’ is a ‘Scott’ one, though I even did a few of those. We went at 11am when often there was no-one else there. I still go on my own for the pleasure of 2 hours where the world is suspended and you are in a different dimension. Here’s to thousands of new films on the big screen, the good, the bad, the ugly and the just plain silly. Enjoy!

  7. Audrey said

    Hurray for trips to the cinema. So gald to hear you can do ‘normal’ things, well…… normally.

    Enjoy your books!


  8. elaine said


    that is all

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